who's the big girl

you will be two next month!!! I can't believe it! time is flying by and you are growing up so fast. you can count now, and you say your abc's (in the incorrect order still, but hey!), and you say new words every day. I didn't know you knew kleenex, or you said a german word for where the paci go? so every day I am surprised by you. and we took you to kids gym and you came out of the bathroom and yelled how you flushed daddy's poop! even though he just went pee, but you don't really separate the two. you love kids gym. it's an organized class where you listen to the teacher and then run around and play, and do gymnastics activities. I realized you are shy with the teacher, and most of the kids will run to him and hit the tamborine he is holding, but you just shy away and sit in my lap. however, the last class, you ran up to him and let him help you do a loop around the bar. I was pretty shocked. I am a little happy you are shy or at least aware of people you don't know. I think I am instilling fear in you as I am so nervous at this stage, of you running in the street, opening the front door, running away from us and thinking it's funny. so, I told you in the alley that a car was coming, and to watch out it can hit you. and you repeat that all the time, even when there is no car..." car coming mommy...it hit you. car coming, it hit you" I am always safety first, and you make me a nervous wreck! you love your baby dolls.. you love to cuddle them, and take them on walks and the other day we were doing bubbles and you would take the baby's hand and have her pop them. you love to share icecream at night with auntie and uncle. they always have a sweet tooth, and you are all over it, trying to get your share. you can put most of your shoes on by yourself. you are still addicted to the paci. you love to cuddle and play with my ears. or your ears too. it's like your wubby. we found out this month that you will be a big sister!!! I am so excited for you to have a sister or brother. I know you will love to baby the baby. but, I also know how jealous you get when I hold other babies, or even the dog, so I am sad you will have to share my attention. it's hard to let go of the fact that it's just you and us, and I want to give all my love and time to you, but I hear the heart grows with each child so there will be enough love to go around. it's a blessing for all of us. every morning you say uppy me mommy or uppy me daddy, to get you out of the crib. sometimes I come in and you say, no daddy. and I have to tell you he went to work. it's funny. you love to go on the trampoline, and you love being outside. and bubbles! and you love to sing happy birthday to you...and finally next month it will be a real birthday for you! I love summer, and it has been fun going on walks, the park, and the baby pool, and the boat. you have been such a sweet loving girl, i love spending every minute with you! you are pretty set in your ways..I do it, or no that's mine, my turn. my dora. and you seem to have opinions on what shoes you don't want to wear, or clothes, or food you don't want to eat. no, I don't like it. and you always want snacks. you eat so many fruit snacks ( which are all corn syrup!) it's crazy! you are big in to saying everything is the color yellow. what color is lucy....yellow, what color is the plant yellow. what color is your bed.. yellow. or you will randomly yell A. you get the alphabet and your colors mixed up. it's funny! you love to brush your teeth. I don't know if you like to eat the toothpaste more, or if you actually like doing it, but you want to a lot, so hopefully this will help us through the cavity war. you are back and forth with potty training, some days you are happy and run to the bathroom, and other days you are like no...diapeee. diapee and don't want to deal with it. I am okay with whenever, but please before the new baby comes use the toilet! crossing my fingers! we are going to vantage this weekend for fun in the sun and you love to run around pat/laura's yard. it' s fun to watch you play outside without fear of cars or anything. I think I mentioned this before but one of the first times you went there, you pooped in their yard! I don't know if you were copying lucy or what! k sweetie, I love you with all my heart!!! mommy

I love you baby

you're a happy baby, I 'm a happy momma, he's a happy daddy, we're a happy family (or, samly).

I'm a loving momma, your a loving baby, he's a loving daddy, we a loving family.

we go on and on and switch up the word in our song...you love to sing it.

and you like to skip to..I am skipping momma.

did I tell you you dechildproofed our house. every door we put the childproof covers on, you figured out a way to get them off...hmmmm. I think I should get my money back!

abcd

doll, you are 21 mos now! time just flies! you are saying your abc's! and it is hilarious! you do lmnop so quick and in and out with your tongue, I don't think you realize it's l m n o p, to you it's lmnopeeee.., it's very cute. we can sing a part and then you keep going with the next part. we have a lot of dance parties in the kitchen, and you enjoy spinning, and moving your arms up and down, and dancing with hunter. you are having full on talks now. and a lot of I do it moments... I do it, I do it! you have been very gentle with babies when they are around and you like to touch their face softly. and you always want to hold them. you are very motherly, and you get down and talk baby talk and try to tickle them. I can put your hair in a pony now, and two ponytails. it's still all over the place, but it's a real pony, and you look so cute! you went on your first easter egg hunts in west seattle. the first one, you picked up just a few eggs and you won two grand prizes! I gave one to jeffrey since you won so much! then, on the weekend we went to one on alki, and you went for a juice box, and you wanted to sit there and drink it, instead of going for the eggs. then, we met up w/Gina/Chance/and your sissies at lincoln park, and you would take the eggs out of your basket and put them in other kids baskets. I was proud of you for sharing! you love to wash dishes! you pull up the chair and try to wash! and you are addicted to the paci. where'd paci go? where'd paci go? but, when you have it you cuddle with me, and I love it when you cuddle, so you can have it for a little longer. you talk on the phone more now, if you arent pushing the buttons. you like to play games on the phone, and you accidently upgraded aunties phone to a paid "talking kitty." you have a kitty on the phone that repeats everything you say, and so you love saying all your words and sayings to the kitty and have him repeat it back and you scream to it too. so, when you saw the neighbors cat you promptly went over and screamed at it hoping it would scream back. it was pretty funny! k, love you!!! mommy!

what I love

so much to love and every day I relish in something more about you to love. my heart grows everyday. I love when you smile and your whole face lights up. your eyes squint up so tight as your face lights up with joy. it's a beautiful joyful happy face. I love when you say I am happy mamma. or when you say bless you mamma, "sess you" it melts my heart I love watching your run.."i'm running mamma" you run fast, but look so clumsy like you could faceplant at any moment, and sometimes you do. I loved watching you love your daddy when he was gone for a week. you gave him love and hugs, and you just touched his face, and his ears, and rubbed his cheeks, like you were in awe that he was really right in front of you. I love when you give me kisses, and do it over and over and make the mchhhmchch sound. I love your crazy hair, and how most of the time, I don't know what to do with it...wondering if I should cut it, or let it grow, or what. but I think it fits your personality, so I let it be free and wild like my spirited little girl. I love how you go for everything and you are not timid. it scares me, but I am proud of you trying new things and experiencing the world with such excitement I love when you cuddle with me. I could go on forever and forever...

hi doll

daddy was gone at the masters this week, so we had some quality you and me time. I even let you sleep in bed with me. I love having you with me, and I cherish every moment, because you are growing so fast. I wish I could stop time and just keep you so young innocent and beautiful. you live in the moment, and I love being a part of it. we went on a ferry ride this weekend and you were loving it! you ate chowder with daddy, and you looked out the window and would scream boat boat! everything was so exciting to you. you loved going from seat to seat and having me follow you. sit here mamma, come sit here mamma. and then we went to a baby shower and you were just the right height to grab all the goodies off the table, so you would run around the house, and go run back to the table and grab jelly beans or put your hand in the cake. you were having a good time! daddy found an app on the iphone where this kitty repeats everything you say, so it is so funny watching you talk to the kitty and then the kitty says everything back in a high pitch voice. you get a kick out of it! you say look at my sock, or you try to sing the abc's, or you scream to it. it's fun to see what comes out of your mouth. you also went to your sissy's volleyball game and we had fun cheering her on. you love playing with them! we are going there tonight to celebrate their birthdays! you are big on saying happy birthday right now, so finally you will be right today! you have fallen in love with your paci. 'where did paci go?!' all day long! I was afraid you would love it, and get addicted to it, but I know you are still a baby and I want you to have what comforts you. but, I want to hear you talk too, so sometimes I take it a way and distract you. but, you always search for it "i found my paci!" this month you get to go on an easter egg hunt, and you get to go to the spring fair! I know you are excited, or I am excited, but I think you will love it!!!!

i do it u do it

wow, you are a toddler now, and you are letting me know! you say I do it! and try and do everything yourself. I am very proud of you for trying so hard. but you do get frustrated easily and you get really upset. you are pretty hilarious. and you have such a big personality! yesterday you were squilling (omg i can't spell!) going in to the mall, because they had a play area there! you were running a sqwealing with delight! I get such joy out of your happiness. and you are not only talking, you are starting to have conversations, so it cracks me up. you still take lucy's bones to give her in the morning, but you love to eat them yourself. and I told you to give lucy her bone, and you said no, and I said giselle, that is for lucy and you said, but I like it. it just cracks me up. and you just came inside and said you kicked the ball. and you had the song about "eat your nana" and you like to say eat your eggs, or eat your whatever. well, you also turned it in to hit your hunter after you hit him! honey, that is not nice! you also say mom or momma, or mommy or sonja! sonja momma sonja. you just sound funny when you say it all. you have learned how to take the child locks off the doors! for some reason you love the laundry room, so I have high hopes that you will do your laundry when you are older! you also love to lock buckles right now...you spend quite a bit of time closing them and asking me to undo it. you and hunter spend a lot of time together and you both have a lot of fun, dancing, chasing, playing. you like to baby him and your baby dolls. today you had them lined up in your crib. you went to portland to spend time with your cousins, and your grammy. grammy wanted you to stay the night, but I wasn't ready to leave you yet. you don't do so well at night in different places..so I couldn't imagine you waking up somewhere and not having me there yet. soooon you can stay the night at grammies! you love to eat popcorn with your daddy, and he loves to get you out of the crib in the morning and you have a dip egg. you always ask for a dip egg! ( in german!) this is such a fun age having you talk back to us. it's just amazing to us. you are amazing to us.

19 1/2 months

I am getting sad again that I am not staying home with you. I just miss you so much. I can't complain, because with my job, I do see you a lot, and I came home today just to rock you. I just want to love you all day, and I get sad that you are growing up so fast. I am not kidding. you are not my newborn anymore, and you are a little person. I love it, but just miss it. by the time you are three, I am staying home. I need to enjoy you and realize if I don't this moment, these precious moments will pass me by. I am reluctant to have another baby, because I love our time. I want to spend my extra time with you and can't imagine having to split that now too. we take many baths together, and walks and trips to the park, and just playing. I just can't imagine taking care of a newborn, when I want to be just loving you. although, I hear a mothers heart just grows and she has more than enough love to give. I just love the you and me time, and I cherish every minute of it. I so bad want to take you out of your crib at night, and I do sometimes, but most the time, I realize, you need to learn to sleep on your own, and I am not doing you any favors waking you as you dream. you are just becoming more and more of yourself everyday. you can communicate with us, you have for a long while, but it just cracks us up that you communicate with us now. you went from being a newborn, to talking to us. and so fast, it's just amazing. you sing "eat your nanna, eat eat your nanna" or more chant it, and the song I'd catch a grenade for you "ya ya ya"..you sing the ya ya part, and you even notice it on the radio. and you dance so cute hands up and down with a little squat, and turning around. and you try to get hunter to dance with you too, and he does a squat move. you two are pretty cute together. when he is not with you, you are always asking me where he is. you still love the outside and ask all the time to go out..at night, whenever, you love being outside. it doesn't matter how cold or rainy it is. we took you to whistler and you had fun in the snow and sledding. and they have a big rec pool that you loved. you would jump to me from the side. you can buckle your life jacket and put the lid on a water bottle. you like to help unload the dishes, and you want to do everything yourself. you put your shoes on yourself, and socks sometimes, and you are working on the other clothes. you say potty/emenem, all the time! you sit, then you are too impatient and run around...your attention span is really short, unless you get in to trying to buckle something or get your shoes on. you just move on to the next thing. you run so fast and cute. I just worry you are going to biff it hard again! you always try to sneak past me at the mall or wherever, and u just go and dont look back. it freaks me out. I never thought I would think about the kid leash, but I get it now. I am this close. you still love to love on your babies, and kiss them and rock them, and put them to bed, or sometimes you just throw them, but for the most part you love them. you know all your body parts...neck, lips, cheek, ear, knee, it's fun for you to go through it all. and in books you know the sounds animals make, and you know parts to books that are coming up, or cartoons you know what is coming up. and you run around the house pointing at objects and saying who's they are mammas bra, dadda's shoe, dadda's phone, hunters coat. I even showed you a picture of you and you could barely see the high chair you were in and you said hunters chair. we have two high chairs and you always want to sit in your girly one. some objects we can't believe you would even know who they belong to, but you do...and you know that hunters mom is auntie andrea, and dad is uncle tom, and same w/your sissies, you call their mom sissies momma. I dont' know how you can understand that already. and when I point to pictures and ask who the boy or girl is, you point to the right sex. and you know your right foot and left foot. sometimes you amaze me, I just don't know how you pick it all up. and you remember people and their names and it's fun to have you say the names. I am really tired right now, you are getting up earlier, and you either want to lay and drink milk for a little bit, or your ready to go running to my bedroom door to go down the stairs. you like to slide backwards or on your butt, or stand and not hold on to anything, which freaks me out. I have to jump out of bed and chase you. you like when I do rarrrr and act like I am going to tickle, so I chase you a lot or you try to do it to me. you like to try and shampoo your hair, but then you don't like the water part, and you love brushing your teeth..or eating the toothpaste, but hey, at least you are doing something to combat that sweet tooth. I wish I remembered all the funny things you have been doing..every day it's a story. and you are still so sweet, you say love you momma and sess (bless) you momma all the time. and randomly say huggie. or give kisses. it's heart melting love. I can't get enough of you. your laugh your smile that squints your eyes and makes your face glow. and your little giggle. and the goodbye kisses you blow. you are my angel. love you!